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The Future Is Here
Hey guys, it's me; Eve!
The last few months since Christmas have been the biggest for me, in terms of emotional and personal development. It feels crazy, how in November I was at the lowest points in my life, but now I feel...so much better. It sounds weird, and it feels a little bizarre, but I've felt parts of myself return that I'd buried or thought I'd lost forever. I legitimately laugh at stupid things, I enjoy the weirdest crap, and I have found the part of myself I'd missed the most, the fun part that believes in the goodness of people and the world.
Once again, I can wake up and enjoy liking dumb things and enjoy getting involved wit
Eversley's Bi-yearly Check-in
2016 was one hell of a year.
:bulletpink: My dog, Jimmy, collapsed and died (you can find his pictures in my gallery).
:bulletpink: My boyfriend collapsed, dislocating his shoulder. He keeps having seizures. (If you're reading this LittleStallion, please let me vent).
:bulletpink: I got dropped from therapy. As a result, my OCD is worse; I act like a zombie most of the time, in fear of compulsions.
:bulletpink: (This looks so whiny, it's all me me me me me; I will get to you amazing lot!) <3
:bulletpink: A positive thing: I was almost a year clean. :)
:bulletpink: Started college for the third time, but we have one teacher left out of six
A Little Update
First off, I'd like to thank all the wonderful and amazing people who have supported me through so much, and who continue to do so. Without you, I know I wouldn't be where I am today.
Second, I'd like to apologise for my lack of updates and how I am failing to respond to people. An apology is pathetic, but most of the time I can barely even find the words to speak to people in person, let alone formulate coherent sentences to type out. It's something I'm working on.
Finally I'm feeling progress in some ways, and although I still have bad days (everybody does) I'm able to cope with them much better, as bad days are only as bad as I make them
Struggling
*rant*
This year, a year meant for change, I hate it.
Already, I have been harrassed online and in person more than any other time in my life. When I'm down, people keep kick-kick-kicking me until I cry, insulting me, insulting what I like. My own fandoms are fighting, taking sides or tearing themselves apart.
There is no family where there was one. There is no safety network unless you're super popular. I'm fed up of deleting deviations, deleting everything about me because people don't like it.
I have watched someone read my suicide note whilst I'm still alive, and suffered a feeling far worse than death.
What's the point in pretending
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